Herman doesn’t like the snow so much.

Hoping for five and a half hours of sleep. I know people who have been doing this for five years. I’m only up to five months I can’t imagine another five months or five years.

My life is not just on hold because I’m on dialysis. It’s been on hold for 20 years. I didn’t make the most of my potential in high school. I was a failure of mediocrity in college. After a career of over a dozen years, I can’t describe to people what it is that I do. And that’s just my career.

I can’t tell someone what my interests are. What sports do I play? What music do I like? What do I do around the house?why don’t you hire someone to clean things up? Why don’t you just clean things up? Why do your clothes smell like rotten cat food? Why don’t you go to the gym? Why don’t you do yoga? Why don’t you get your ass out of bed on the weekends so you can help the chained dogs you claim you want to help?

Why do I let myself become paralyzed by feelings of weakness, incompetence, failure?

I do. It happens. And the path away from this is painfully elusive.

I censored a recent post in which I admiited having inhibitions compromised by AmBien. I can tend to admit to unsavory thought and behaviors.

Tonight I admit I am a broken mass of ineptitude.

And now I hope for five hours of sleep.

Yay for 88-year-old Betty White, picking up the Screen Actors Guild Lifetime Achievement Award last night.

Her acceptance speech starts around the 4:00 mark.

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I’ve never watched a lot of Conan O’Brien over the years, but I appreciate his talent and have been disheartened by his losing of The Tonigt Show. I am not a Jay Leno fan.

I was thinking about what Conan could do next that could be as special as hosting The Tonight Show. I’ve heard this nowhere else, but I would Conan might land at HBO. I think that’s the classiest network, and Conan is a classy guy.

I don’t see an 11:00 show on FOX being that special. Competition with Jay and Dave, and Stewart and Colbert.

An 11:30 show on HBO, Monday through Friday.

I just made the tough decision to drop HBO to try to save some dough. I might be inclined to shell out the bucks again if Conan came aboard.

Just a crazy thought.

From my Tape 38: Duke Tape #1: Lullabyes for ######, circa September 1993, which I recently gave a listen to after a decade or so. Possibly more to come from that goldmine of song.

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First to identify the artist and the song title wins a gift card to a local business establishment!

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I forgot. Before Al Franken was seated, which wasn’t until JULY, the Democrats only had 59 votes. Before Arlen Specter switched parties back in April, the Democrats only had 58 votes. Do you mean to tell me that they had no plan to pass meaningful health reform back when they ONLY had a 16-seat edge in the Senate?

What the hell?

And as for the liberal House members who now say they will refuse to rubber-stamp the Senate bill…good for them. Last night, I felt like the Dems ought to salvage something, like a healthcare reform bill. Right now, I feel like the progressives need to salvage their principles, and that means rejecting a bill that fattens the pockets of the insurance companies and does not bring down costs. Or just pass the friggin bill. I don’t friggin know…

Just because there aren’t enough pet pictures in this blog. Herm and Z get the spotlight tonight.

Five years ago, it would seem like a great premonition to imagine that the Democrats are going to have 59 votes in the Senate, a huge majority in the House, and the Presidency. But suddenly, with the Massachusetts Senate disaster, it’s said that Obama’s agenda is shot and Democrats won’t get anything done. They have an 18-vote advantage in the Senate, and it’s the worst thing ever. It’s as if they’ve always counted on Joe Lieberman’s vote, and they’ve assumed that nonagenarian Robert Byrd would make every vote. It’s hard to believe anyone ever thought that Dems would push through healthcare reform with 60 votes.

Last decade, I remember Bush had 50 votes, and he’d get stuff rammed through.

This Massachusetts Senate debacle, and the tenuous state of healthcare reform are yet more reasons I don’t know why I bother following politics. I constantly stressed out about politics. There is so much disappointment in following politics, so little reward. But I can’t help following politics; I really wish I could.

That’s the end of my rant. I have nothing intelligent to say. I’ve got to turn off MSNBC.

Oh…the House better go ahead and pass the Senate’s crappy bill. At least it’s something. Yes, a few months ago, it sounded spineless to advocate that Obama just “sign something,” but the Dems screwed this all up, and they’ve got to salvage something.